Greetings One and All,
So its been quite a while since I've posted anything to my blog and I'd like to start by apologizing for that. I really had intended on continuing with my 'How to Run a Star Trek RPG Campaign', not just for those who were interested but also for myself. It was a great way, I thought, to explore the how's and why's of my favorite subject within a favorite subject. It would be akin to "Duff" Goldman talking about making a bass guitar themed cake. How freakin' cool would that be for us and for him?
Then something unexpected happened...I ran my first Star Trek adventure in nearly 3 years for my new/current group, it went over really well and then I...I lost all interest in continuing it.
I'm not entirely certain I can tell you why. Partially, it was...off somehow. The players enjoyed it but I felt it was distinctly less amazing then previous attempts at running the game. It was missing heart, feeling somewhat hollow and empty. It was Star Trek with all its Phasers, Warp Drive and Transporter Beams but little of its depth, intelligence or soul. I had somehow failed to follow my own advice. I had made Voyager, or worse, the JJ Abrams film. Wow, where did that come from? Was that my outside voice?
Well, the latest movie did indeed dampen my enthusiasm and I wonder if perhaps I let it get to me more than I should have. Be that as it may, I know that I can't run a game if I'm not feeling it on a deep, core level. The campaign is just going to end up crappy and I don't want that. Better to nip it in the bud right away. Unfortunately, by deciding to cancel the new Star Trek campaign I felt almost embarrased coming back on here to my blog. I didn't know what to say, what to talk about next and honestly, wasn't excited about the prospect of admitting defeat.
So what does this mean for my blog? Well, it means owning up and saying, "Hey, I'm a damn good GM but I'm not perfect." It means accepting temporary defeat while I marshal my resources for another go later on. It means talking about something else for a while. It means using this as a way to discuss ideas that may eventually bring the magic back. I am not without other games, interests or ideas and therefore I am not without something to discuss on my blog.
I hope those who were coming here to learn more about Star Trek gaming don't feel cheated. Hopefully you'll keep coming back anyway.
Live Long and Prosper,
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Barking Alien
*unsubscribe*
ReplyDeleteJust kidding. Man does not live by one game alone, something I myself have re-discovered. My post count is way down, though it has more to do with real life than lack of things to post about. These are games... if you're not having big fun, move on! I know I'll still be reading (I'm actually subscribed to very few Trek realted blog anyway!)
Thanks Robert I appreciate that.
ReplyDeleteWhile I don't subscribe to many Star Trek related blogs, Star Trek RPG related blogs are definitely on interest. Make no mistake, my decision not to run this latest campaign dosen't mean its not still my favorite subject for a game. Its just that...well maybe now is not the time. I am not worried, its time will come.
I like your blog a lot as you know and I've learned quite a bit from it. Hopefully the renewed interest in Sci-Fi gaming will inspire us both and we can cross promote our blogs again in the near future : )
Ooh...The Near Future (Que 70's TV background 'spacey' music)...